Christmas Break Insomnia

It's 2:30 am, Thursday December 29th. I am totally wired on caffeine. Probably won't hit the sack for another hour... Damn Wawa.. So Christmas was eh this year. Had a freaking stomach virus. I have never failed to endure an illness over Christmas yet! Great accomplishment huh? Oh well, what can you do. At least my brother medicated me with Miller.. That really helped my 102 fever lol. I sat in his room with music blaring, window wide open, his fan full blast and a Miller Lite on my neck lol. Merry Christmas Michele! I am glad everyone liked their gifts this year. My brother and I are really getting good at shopping for the rents. Old age perhaps? I felt bad for my boy friends parents though. They had Christmas dinner at their house unfortunately, I had to bail out last minute. I went up on Saturday, but I really felt bad I couldn't be their with the whole family. I know that they were really looking forward to having me meet the whole clan. But, if I went I would have been throwing up half the time. I think I'm going to purell my ass to death for the next few days so I don't repeat Christmas on New Years.

So forget the mushy crap, let's get to the goods of '08. Now I don't know about you, but nothing says love like a Pearl necklace and a Bilstein sport suspension. I love my boy friend. He knew exactly what to get me. I got him the latest and greatest Garmin and of course some clothes and skiing stuff. I got his dad a kick ass cashmere scarf and his mom a Waterford xmas ornament and a Yankee candle. My bro and I got our dad a digital camcorder ( he needed to be updated from the old fashion tapes). We got mom a really nice griddle she wanted and a logitech ihome thingy for her ipod she recently mastered. And last but not least, we got Nana a hearing aid and sugar free chocolate lol. I got the Bro Back to the future and the Ghostbuster trilogies. He just got a sweet Samsung TV from Nana so he's set not to leave the house. Oh I almost forgot, I got Toby that pet nail clipper (as seen on TV). :) Him don't like it.. Damn TV people lied. They must have sedated the cat they clipped on the commercial because Toby ran! lol.

I love giving people gifts on Christmas. It's so easy to tell when someone really likes something. And when they really like your gift.. I dont know, I get this great feeling of accomplishment. It's so cool to share real joy with somebody. You and that person you gave to have this connection for about a minute and a half. And you always question their enthusiasm. Like, "Yeah?! Do you really like it? I wasn't sure in the store, but the guy..." It's the best part of Christmas. At lest for me it is. Well, 2008 is done. I can't wait for summer lol.

Next Semester

Next semester I am taking math 012 because I missed the cut off by 3 pts. Should have retook the test but eh, I suck at algebra. English 152 because I loooooovvveee English oh so much lol. Economics 151, Comm 154 and Intro to business. Dean Polk helped me pick out my classes to ensure a good business transfer to Kean. I'm pretty excited about all of them. Should be an interesting semester..

Why kids cheat..

Well, let me just tell you my story then maybe I can answer the question. It was the first marking period of my senior year. I was in Mr. Murphy's advanced English class. His curriculum included an outside reading every marking period. And to be honest I thought our options where quite standard and boring. So I thought I could beat the system again with my 50 dollar subscription to Bookrags.com, A cliff note site. Except this time instead of reading every chapter summary and writing a report in my own words like I did throughout most of high school. I got a little lazy in the midst of writing this report on The Stranger. Which supposedly was a good book, but nevertheless I stole 2 paragraphs from another similar essay. I used a thesaurus to replace some words. But, instead of fully rewording the paragraphs I just left them as is. I thought it flowed similarly to mine. So I left it. Well, about a week later I was shocked that my teacher figured it out and printed out the essay off of google. I really thought since I paid for my sh*t I would have been safe. It was literally two paragraphs, the rest I did write. It didn't matter, Mr. Murphy failed me for the first marking period. It kept me off the high honor roll! So I went home and told my dad. He was so pissed. It was a nightmare, I got my car taken away for 2 weeks! My dad called my teacher and he agreed not to make a federal issue out of it and report me to the school, but he did fail me. So after the incident I never renewed my subscription to Bookrags.com, I have never even revisited the site since then. I learned my lesson the hard way. I was so lucky not to have been reported to the school. Thank God it was my first offence. It really sucks too because during high school my ex boyfriend, plagiarized every essay he had ever handed in. He was in basic English and I guess those teachers are just happy to have something to read. But, he never got caught, and his essays were practically word for word. I suppose he instigated me as well. However, he was a very very very stupid kid. I had multiple teachers tell me that he held me back. I eventually got over the V-card thing and realized that they were right. However, I guess he was just lucky or had tons of sympathy for his stupidity. However, I don't believe kids cheat because they dislike their teacher, or feel that their teacher is a push over. I know my reason for doing it was arrogance and laziness. I felt as if my eloquence in my speech and writing was enough of a cover to make me above the law. Where as in my ex's case he simply was extremely dumb and lazy. I do believe if he got caught like I did, it would not have phased him like it did me. I had much more to lose than he did. I was a bright kid, I couldn't afford to have my name tarnished. He was pretty much retarded, seriously, people thought he was, I have no idea what I saw in him. He had nothing to lose. He was in retarded classes that probably didn't care because he probably wouldn't go to college. So I guess for those who aren't high achievers do it because they just don't care. A D to them is just as good as an A, as long as they pass that seems to be okay with them. So if they get caught, oh well, better luck next time. I believe someone like me experiencing an F in English for the first time ever, would be enough to change them for the rest of their lives. I known that I will never ever do it again. It is not worth it, AT ALL. Bottom line is eventually everyone gets caught, and you probably wont just get an F. Not only will you fail, but everyone will know that Jane Doe plagiarized, and in college, you will get kicked out of school. And good luck getting into another school. You might as well stick you head in between your legs and kiss your ass goodbye. And if you simply forgot to do the assignment, just hand it in late or don't do it at all. Better an F for forgetfulness than for plagiarism. In conclusion, kids cheat because their lazy and arrogant. Youth can sometimes make you feel above the law, especially if you are underage. I only hope for someone like me, if they decide to cheat and get caught that their teacher is as kind to them as my teacher was to me. I don't think kids understand the severity of plagiarism until they are caught. I know I didn't. I never thought that the consequences were that sever. But, they are. I think teachers should spend a few moments in the beginning of the semester to just emphasize how real this is. Warn them of the consequences and make clear that it is not tolerated and that they will be caught. It happened to me, and I think I was pretty smart about it. I think I put more thought and money into it than most probably do. So if I got caught, you most likely will too. DON'T DO IT!

The Car Hunt

Well my Bemmer hit 168k miles the other day. My poor baby's getting old. She hates this cold weather too. I had a little trouble starting her up on Tuesday to go to class. She still runs great, I just get nervous when she does that. She probably didn't like sitting in the cold for a few days without being started. I've been so sick this past week I could not even get out of bed. I'm pretty sure its bronchitis. I got to get my butt to the doctor Monday to clear this up. Anyways, I'm in the market for a newer car. I figure the getting is good in the car market since the economy has hit the car market pretty bad. My cars still worth a good penny so my parents are willing to help me out with something newer. My dad and I went car shopping on Friday. We were all over north Jersey looking at these Audi TT's. That car's got some ah-um's. I wasn't sold on them though. I don't hate the fact that most of them are manuals. Stick's are fun to drive. They just get annoying after awhile. However, during our car quest I came across a few Audi A4's that I liked. It was the last place we looked, at the last moment walking out three of them caught my eye. There was this one midnight blue V6 quattro, OMG. She was gorgeous! little high on the price though. But, she was only 2 grand over our max. I was hopping my "professional" wheel and dealer dad would work the guy down. No such luck. My dumb ass dad offers the guy 12 out the freaking door with a trade. I'm thinking to myself at this point "what the hell happened to Mr. Low Ball 2 lots ago?!" So of course we call my mom to see what she thought. No go on that deal. I was pissed. I loved that car. She had 86,000 miles which isn't bad on an 02' A4. My boyfriends 98' A4 has 200,000 miles on it and the bitch still runs like a champ and he's never had to replace anything major on it. Then today, I was like to hell with my dad, I'm bringing my secret weapon to look at another A4. So I met my boyfriend up in Asbury at this dealer we were at just last week to look at an S4 for him. They had the same car in silver with only 56,000 miles on it and they wanted 11,995. I brought my car for the guy to look at as a trade, and God bless my boyfriend (who instructs and races for Porsche BTW) he tried so hard to get this guy to come down on the price. Damn guy would only come down to 11,200 with my car! I was pretty bummed. I really liked this A4. I test drove it and everything, man did she handle too. After dinner we went back to the drawing board and came across a bunch of A4's in my price range, so hopefully I will hit the right one. Buying a car is so freaking stressful. Of course I can't settle for a Japanese or American car. I mean I've been spoiled with German engineering. That would be like going from Park avenue to the Park bench. And besides every single day I'd catch major crap from my boyfriend and all of his friends if I ever rolled up in a Honda. No offence, but they all race Porsche's, I just can't do it. I hope I find something soon...

Turkey Day!

So Thanksgiving has come and gone, and we have about 3 weeks till Christmas!! My Thanksgiving was kind of depressing. My mom decided she wasn't cooking this year so we had our turkey dinner at a restaurant. I did not like this at all. It felt so wrong. It was also difficult to stuff my face since my brother and I drank to oblivion the night before. I felt like crap the whole day. I was supposed to go to my boyfriends parents afterwards but, I was so sick. Not only was I extremely hungover but, this damn cold I caught off him wont go away. Its been a week and I still can't breathe. I felt awful about not going but, there was no way in hell I was driving an hour up north in holiday traffic hungover with a cold. Hopefully next year will be better. I have a feeling I am going to be hosting a party next year. Scott's dead set on moving in together after spring semester sooo we shall see. If so, I'm frying my turkey. My dad did that last year and it was awesome.

Advising Experience at OCC

Lol why do they have professors advising kids? Shouldn't that be another job in its self? It is freaking ridiculous. I went to the administration building, the lady told me to look up where the psychology advisers are. So, I go to the teacher sign up on her door. Then, I came back the next day. I then explained to her that I wanted to switch my major over to business. So She said that I needed to go talk to someone in the business dept. Okay, so she then walked me over to the business part of the building. I went to Prof. Reily's office and of course there is a freaking wait. So I looked for another professor to go to. Walked all the way downstairs. And I get this guy who has never done this before, and it was his first semester here at OCC. So I explained my situation to him and after about 15 minutes he takes me upstairs to the "big guy". I was actually surprised that he was able to explain somethings to me about the associates degrees. But still, I needed more answers. And more importantly, I needed to make sure it wasn't futile to sign up for the business classes in the spring. I sit down with Mr. Polk, who turns out to be the dean of business, economics and comp sciences. I really liked this guy. He was so helpful and totally changed my mind about the associates degree. He was very logical in his approach to help me. He went over all my classes, told me all of them were great to transfer except the health course that the associates requires you to take. So He gave me the spring 09 catalog and circled a bunch of classes for me to take instead of the health class. Then he Bs'ed for a little while about Latin. lol He had me translating a bunch of college motto's. I was quite surprised as to how much Latin I actually remembered. Anyway, an hour and a half later I had my future all planned out. Pain in the ass, but hey I got it done.

Sick as a Dog

I am going to kill my boyfriend. He gave me the worst cold ever. I feel like someone took a hose full of gook and flooded my lungs. I can't breathe at all. My throat feels like it is on fire. Totally ruined my week. And what sucks even more is Friday night my aunt and uncle came up and took us to a Yes concert at the Borgata. It would have been soooo much better if I wasn't blowing my nose the whole damn time. This whole week was shot. I can't even drive. I feel dizzy and weak. UGH! I just want to feel better!!!!! Why did my boyfriend have to kiss me!! Men suck, they really do.

Media, Ugh!!!

Why is every news channel still going on about Sarah Palin?? The elections over people! Leave the poor woman alone. They lost, big deal. Someone had to lose. They keep asking her too "are you running for president in 2012?" People seriously, she just got he ass beat to a pulp, you really think shes sure about that one? God bless her if she decides that she is. But, I doubt it will happen. Besides, the end of the world is coming in 2012. This country just voted in the Jewish prophecy of Mahad. We are so done lol, right at his 2nd turn all these ancient texts predict doom. And Mahad really pin points Obama as a sign. Funny, I wouldn't be surprised if it happens, the beacon for freedom has been going down the pooper since the 80's. That's when this country really became greedy and corrupt. Interesting, the same exact thing happened to Rome... hmmmm. Hopefully, it wont but, I don't know. Sorry if my cynicism is upsetting, I'm in one of those depressed angry moods. Fricken Boyfriend..

I hate men

Why are men so damn stupid. My boyfriend tells me monday night that he was going to come down tonight. So today I kept asking him "are you coming down?" he kept giving me one of those "I don't know yet" lines. Boy I hate that. Then I asked him "ok well you want my mom to save you some meat loaf?" He says "Yeah". Ok, so he wants meat loaf but he's not coming. Word of advice to all the men out there don't tell people to cook for you if your going to be a no show. I'm so pissed right now. He does this all the time. Why can't guys just make up there minds. I understand he has to work on this stupid house he bought, but still, let me know for Christ sakes! You working or not? He works all day with the guy that is a partner on the house with him, you have all day to see if you guys are working or not. So stupid. I think he deliberately does this to keep me home. He knows theres a sailing party tonight. I've been asking him since 11 am when I got out of class if he was coming or not. And he couldn't give me an answer till 6:45 when he was outside the freaking house. UGH! I think just for spite im going to go to this party, take a picture of it, send it to him and turn my damn phone off.

Long distance roundabout

Long distance relationships suck. They really suck when you truly love the person. It's really sad. I go through the absence makes the heart grow fonder stage even if I saw him yesterday. Why can't love be convenient? If I want to see Scott, I've got to drive 85 miles. It really blows. My poor car. Thank God its German, If it were any other car with 167,652 miles on it I probably would have poured 5k into it by now. Which I don't have so, I'd then be relying on him to drive to me. I wonder what would happen if cars still didn't exist today. Would I still have met Scott? I believe fate brought us together, but, would the same fate have existed if technology wasn't around? Hmmm, I wonder...

Changes

I just realized something about myself lol. I noticed that from Senior year of high school to my freshman year in college my maturity shot up to this incredible height. Last year I was so incredibly lazy or at lest it seemed. I missed 23 days of school. My junior year was more like 30. But, last year I never took much pride in my work. I always did what was required of me and was happy with a B or a C, with the occasional A in classes I enjoyed. I constantly compared myself to other kids. And I'd fluctuate between liking and hating myself. I dreaded going to school, hated being in the presence of so many kids that I couldn't understand. Then, all of the sudden I get into college and everything clicks. I have an A in Algebra, IN ALGEBRA. I passed Algebra in high school by the hairs on my chinny chin chin. How in the world is the happening? Firstly, I think this change happened due to my inter generational relationship. Dating an older guy definitely helps. But, I also think its the environment that has allowed me to flourish. What else could it be? I love college. Not necessarily the kids, except the sailing kids they're cool. But, the structure of the whole college life feels like me. People actually are here to succeed. No one bothers you. No drama of who kissed who and what she said. It's so relaxed. It's funny my mom was right too. All the girls that gave me problems in high school disappeared. None of them are even going to college. It's such a good feeling to drive to school and know I can finally be myself. I no longer feel afraid to voice my opinion. Sometimes I still feel as if I am envied or something, but, it doesn't phase me as much anymore. College is helping me realize that I have a real talent that most people only dream of having. I don't mean to be gloating about myself but understand I've spent my whole life wondering what was wrong with me. Why am I so different than the average girl? Why am I not girly? It feels so good to finally accept myself.

The squeaky wheel

Here's my question: do you believe that the "squeaky wheel gets the grease?" In other words, do you think that you have to be forceful to get what you want in life - or do you think that being nice and accommodating will eventually have better results, even if it takes a bit longer?

This notion can easily be corrolated to a sailing strategy. During a race, there are moments to be aggressive and moments to be consevitive. The key to success to knowing when to do one or the other. For example, When you see an opening for a prime spot on the starting line, it is wise to kick everyones butt to get it and hold it like there's no tomorrow. Everyone in sailing knows that your starting postion will determine whether you win or lose. A better example is knowing your rights. If you are on a starboard(right) tack, and someone is headed toward you on a port tack. You have right of way. They better move or else they will end up in the protest room. So, in this situation you yell and scream STARBOARD! So they know that you know the rule and can't fool you off your course. Then, if they do hit you, and they don't do a 720(two circles) you yell PROTEST! And then find people around you to ask if they witnessed it. Later, you will go to the protest room with a witness and argue your protest. If you win the protest they will be disqualified. During the Penn State regatta I attened with OCC, I sailed conservatively. The conditions were strong shifty winds and rain. People had already flipped so there was no way I was pushing the boat my first time skippering. So for the last two races Stevens Tech and I were neck and neck, leading me a little. So, I simply tacked away, out of their bad air. Then tacked at the perfect moment back toward the finnish line. I had the boat in it's fastest point of sail. and I beat Steven's for fourth place by approx. 30-40 seconds. It was sweet. But, to make the connection more clear and answer the question. It is always wise to be more of a squeaky wheel than quite. If you sail agressively all the time you probably will win all the time. You probably will look like an ass so it's not wise to do so. Considering you will most likely see these people at some point again. Same goes in life. If you're a B**** you probably will get your way most of the time. However, you will be looked at with the same rescpect that people give Amorossa on the Aprentice (no I don't watch it). Life requires a balence. You can't let people walk all over you. However, you cannot make demands all the time. When you start to squeak too much, people will tune you out or leave your life.

School or Work

Prof Lauro wants to know: If you could transfer to ANY four year college, which one would it be? What's your dream school?

As far as schools go. Right now I am not quite sure what I want to do. I plan on getting married within the next year or so. So, I am tossed up whether or not I should just go in to real estate after two years and eventually become a broker. Or, go for the four year and then go into real estate or something along the lines of business. I suppose I will probably go for the four year degree. But, as easy as this school stuff comes to me, I am really sick of it. I just want to work already! To answer the question about what my dream school would be, it's simple. Penn State. My brother is a senior at PSU for Mechanical Engineering. It would be so cool to start a family tradtion at PSU. I also LOVE the campus. It is beautiful and continually grows bigger and bigger. The students are awesome! They are all so friendly and open. The parties are a blast and abundant. From what my brother tells me at least from an engineering major point of view, the classes can be challenging. Which it is probably safe to say that a major along the lines of business will not be as rigourous as his. So a little challenge would be good. I'm pretty confident I could get in to Penn State too. My GPA right now stands somewhere between a 4.0 and a 3.6. I can get a 4.0 if I just write more of these damn blogs lol. My SAT scores were average. I got a 1540 with all the subjects added up. I dont know how to convert it to the new score though. But I know it equaties to an avgerage score. Plus, I have quite a few teachers I could go to for a letter of recomendation. However, the flip side to going to PSU is the cost. It's $38,000 a year for my brother right now. I could'nt do that to my poor dad. He'd pay for it. Then he'd have a heart attack. Unless, I could get a scholarship, It's not worth it. Not for a business degree any way. I'd rather go to Kean University. It's about 45 minutes to an hour away from my boyfriend's house. So I would'nt have to live there. I could work in real estate and go to school. I could afford it on my own. And they offer a pretty good Marketing program. That seems like my best option right now. Rutgers is really close to his house. It's only a half hour away. But, I dont like there business program. It's limmited to a more general business degree and I want to go in to marketing. Madaun a Mia! So many decissions, so little time! Tempus Fugit!

Boom + head = no good

So, today we had sailing practice. Okay, no biggie. Usually, when it's gail force winds, we stay inside and do chalk talks. Well, not today. My coach decides to make us go out. I can't explain the feeling I got when I pulled into the the yatch club and saw the team putting the boats in. I literally slowed the car down and glared at them. So, I parked my car and proceeded to tell the coach that he is a mad man. He tells me to put on my gear. So I do just that (I should have told him to go f himself but, I respect people too much). So the coach comes and picks Lisa and I (the two late comers) up off the dock. Then, as we were heading out to the course, I suppose my coach had some kind of epiphany because he decided to put 3 of us on a boat. LUDICROUS! First of all 420's are not designed for 3 people. So silly me, I obey orders and climb into this over crowded boat. So the first run went okay. Everyone bitched about how tight it was, but no injuries. Then we pulled up next to the crash boat and proceeded to swap crews. Coach put Jamie on, one of our top girls. So, I proceeded to get off. He says "no no no stay on". I give him the are you serious look and crawl back on. Now, this is were it all goes down. After our 2nd or 3rd tack, as we were tacking, I had to wait for Jamie to get over to the other side of the boat before I would any space whats so ever to sit on the rail. So as I am doing so, the boom (the long metal pole on the bottom of the sail) WACKS me in my little noggin. And when I say WACK, I mean WACK! Mind you, I have been hit by a boom before, but not like this, and not on the back of my head like this. This sucker was swingin'. With winds of 15 to 20mph pushing it along. So I yell, "F***!" and crouch into the fetal position and cry. My teammates sailed me back to the crash boat. My coach looked at me and said, "What did you do, hurt yourself?" I looked up at him all teary eyed and red and said, "Uh, yeah!" So they motored me back to the docks and I got off. I walked over to my car and sat down for a little while and smoked a cigarette. Then, I noticed I was nauseous. Then the head ache came on. Then, I went home. My mom and my brother concluded that I have a minor concussion :(. Hence, I am going to the doctor tomorrow. I'm too old at heart to deal with this crap anymore. 8-10 years ago when I was 4'11 it was fun. Now I feel drained and beat up from it. I'm sticking to my boyfriend's yatch, screw this crap. If I'm sailing from now on I'm doing so drunk and on a boat where the booms a good foot above my head.

NBC Nightly News 10-28-08

Here is the cilp of my dad on NBC!

NBC New York just left my house...

Well, based on the title I bet you're wondering what the hell NBC was doing at my house.. Well, My dad took a survey over the phone a few days ago from NBC in regards to the economy and the election. My dad was rated a strong republican, and had a very optimistic point of view towards the economy. Only 10% of the people surveyed had a positive view of the economy and 90% had a negative view. So NBC called my dad today to do a two day interview with NBC's MIke Taibbi of Dateline and Daily Nightly. So Mike came with a producer and a camera guy, and interviewed my dad about his optimistic point of view. It was sooooo cool! And They got some shots of my mom and I cooking in the kitchen. So I'll be on NBC Monday night! Before they started filming, Mike was talking to my family and I. The guys done some really cool stuff. He was in Afghanistan right after the war started in 02'. And his son writes for Rolling Stone. And best of all he's a sailor! After the filming, I had to question the liberal media about the election. I brought up Dr. Kali Almansur, advisior to Saudi govt. and lawyer to Malcolm X. I stated how I was concerned about how he funded Obama through Harvard and how this guy says: "Whatever yo do to white people is ok, God wants you to do it, whether you rip off an ear, a nose or take flesh.." His rebuttal was something like this: well I don't know who that is but, you can't look at that. and he went on to list Obama's achievement in Harvard Law and in Chicago (which pissed me off because I had a rebuttal for all of them). I think I annoyed him a little, I was like a Fox News girl rehashing the same point to see if I could change his response. LOL Funny... I wish it was Fox News instead of NBC. But hey I'm going to be on TV!

Drained

Ever have one of those days where your not tired but you just feel drained? Well, that's how I feel. I've got so much crap to do this week it's ridiculous. I just want to stop it all and go to an island. Today I had to get up at 6:30 just like any other weekday. Then go to math. Which at lest I got good news in regards to my test I took last Tuesday. Then meet with my English group to fix our essay. Then I came home ate a bagel, finished fixing the essay. And I haven't left my computer since. I wrote my friend a long ass email that I haven't seen since august since she moved with her bf to PA. And now I'm waiting to go to lab at 2. Then at 4 after lab I've got to go sailing which sorry to say I'm getting tired of. It's cold out and I don't feel like sailing for 3 hours getting wet and cold. Then I've got to write yet another essay when I get home around 7. Which I probably wont start till 9 since I have to eat at some point and I'm sure my Bf will call me after work. So I probably wont go to bed till 12. Then! I have to get up at 6:30 tomorrow go to English. Hand in the essays. Have a conference with the professor, and get all worked up over my grade. Then go to the car place and see why the hell my car is leaking oil. Then study for a huge Bio exam on Thursday. Then go to sailing practice Thursday. Then come home and pack to leave Friday for Penn State. Then! Friday get up at 6:30, go to math. come home, go to the gyno for that stupid gardasil shot which I don't even know why I am getting it. At least I'm not paying for it. Then! Drive 5 fricken hours to my brother's apartment at PSU. Then! Saturday get up bright and early again! and drive an hour off campus to some lake out in eastbumba and race in a regatta. Come back with a bunch of sailing kids I'm not even sure I like and house them in my poor brothers apartment. Then! Hopefully inebriate myself to oblivion watching PSU kick Ohio States ass! Then! Wake up somewhat early and drive another 5 hours home. GOD, just shoot me! And you know whats even worse theirs only two people that will read this blog. My professor and my boyfriend. Not that I don't want you guys to, believe me I am greatful. It's just sad I wrote this blog like a bunch of people that care will read it. UGH now I gtg I'm going to be late to wear myslef out.

Frustrations

So, my frustrations here, in my polar ice cap office, led me to this question: what frustrates you the most about higher education? I don't mean "which class is hardest": I mean, what's the most difficult thing about attending college? Is it the new rules about homework? Is it parking? Is it balancing class and work? Is it something else entirely? Let me know what's on your mind, now that we're approaching the mid-way mark to the semester.

My frustrations would have to be more of a disappointment. I thought OCC would have been a little less clicky and a little more mature. My largest frustration is in your class professor. That girl who sits behind me. Ohhhhh, you called the tension as we read our identi-kits aloud. Every Wednesday I've got the top of an ugg shoved up my a**. During the 3rd class, I even gave her the half turn and pissed off you better stop look. I got one of those "Like, sorrys". I think she even wears them deliberately every Wednesday to piss me off. Because it has happened every damn Wednesday! And quite frankly, I hope she reads this blog, because it really ticks me off. I swear one of these days I am going to make a scene about it. When I feel it creep up the cheek of my butt, I sit all the way back, and stick my butt over the back of my seat just a little to make a point. And here's the other thing I don't get. I sit up in my seat anyway. So my a** isn't even near the back edge of the seat. So either that's one big boot, or a conspiracy. Hehe, you know what I should do. I should fart in her boot. Maybe it will gross her out enough where she'll throw them out and be forced to where a shoe she can handle. I swear she is the epitome of what I hate about my generation. No consideration for others, and they even think it's funny. Yeah! wont be funny when your boot smells like my A**!!!!

PS: I would appreciate it if I did not have to work with her if we have to do another group project. It is "kids" like her which forced me to derive my Pink Floyd T-shirt theory. Stick me with some boys or not so fashion forward girls next time. ;)

Ugh

When's the last time you HAD to do something you really, really didn't want to do? I soooo don't want to go to any of this stuff. (I get creeped out by corpses.) But I soooo can't get out of it. So when's the last time you had an obligation you couldn't get out of? You don't have to tell me what it was, because that's none of my business. But what did you do to get through it?

I remember back in first grade I was forced to move my seat. I sat next to my best friends Jamie and Julie. It was one of those younger close-nit clicks. Well, a new girl moved to town and was imposing on my position. She wanted to sit next to Jamie. I'll never forget this, the teacher moved me and said "We have to share and let he new girl sit next to your friends." That was my obligation in first grade, "sharing." So I cried and cried, and brewed hatred for this girl Sheri all day. By the end of the day I was really pissed, I knew I was losing my position in my click to the "new girl." So as we were walking outside to meet our parents, I delt with my anger by punching that B*** right in the face. Then, I walked away got in my mom's car and said "Mom we gotta go!" My mom asked why. I said, "because I just punched Sheri in the face." Now my mom knew this girl was giving me problems so she said "you did?" Then the girl's mom came running up to the car, "Mrs. Randall, Mrs. Randall!!" With the little you know what crying behind her, "Do you know that your daughter just hit my kid in the face?!" My mom said, "Oh my god she did?" "Now Michele say your sorry." So I half-assed said sorry, and got back in the car. Now I thought I was going to be in big doo doo but, my mom looked at me and said "yeah that's my girl!" And high fived me. I felt so proud for standing up for myself. I'll never forget that high and mighty feeling I had that day.

Unbiased Opinion..

I did not watch the last presidential debate either professor Lauro. So I really can't respond to your post. However, based on the polls, it's going to be a landslide. You want an unbiased opinion, there is no way in hell America will vote in another 4 years of republican. It just wont happen. As much as I would like to see it happen, it wont. I also think that Sarah Palin ruined John's campaign. No one in the Continental U.S thinks Alaska when they think of a state. She's too inexperienced and simple to sway voters. If John McCain wanted to have a better shot at winning this election he should have picked Mitt Romney. I actually wish that Romney won the primaries. How could you go wrong with an economist for a VP mate. Especially now. Oh well, Heine sights 20/20 right?

Cold and Mad

I just got home from a horrible night. My boyfriend decides to come down to the boat in Chadwick last night. So I finally get there about ten o'clock. It was exceedingly windy and cold. I said there is no way in hell I am sleeping on this damn thing. So what do we end up doing, sleeping on the boat. Mind you it is a 34ft boat but, instead of heat/air conditioning, my boyfriend puts useless radar in. So there I am wide awake all night freezing and pissed off. Then to top it off the beer in the fridge kept clinking around all night because the boat was rocking so much. Needless to say, I did not sleep a wink last night. grrrrr.

Night Man

I know I'm filling my blog with funny videos... I can't help it.. I have to share them... Eh take you mind off the 1000 pt drop in the market today....

6,000 Chicken Fajitas

A good laugh...

I would just like to thank my friend Zack of Central Illinois for these wonderful videos.. Watch this guy make an ass of him self on MSNBC.. ROTFL!

SARAH PALIN ROCKS! Zack's favorite Harlem pastor, James David Manning. I found Manning to be funny but, certainly effective... watch this..

Puzzled as to how things got so F'd Up?

Are you pointing your blue fingers at Bush? Do you believe this crisis is his fault? Well let the truth be known! Let this clip from Cspan back in 2004 explain to you how your beloved liberals F'd YOU over. Oh yea Frank Raines advisor to Obama.. Smart guy! Sike! It was the Republicans that tried to stop the crisis in the first place. Not the Democrats! This clip also backs my previous blog...

College years?

Can anyone tell me why Obama or any left media source fails to discuss his college years?

The debate and soooo much more...

Professor Lauro said.. I think she redeemed herself nicely. I do think Biden did a bit better, but only because he's had more practice. Still, she came across polished but not elitist, and knowlegable but willing to learn. What did you think?

Oh what do I think? "The future of America hangs in the balance like a loose tooth. Everything you and I have worked for is being wiped out before our eyes" Michael Savage.

I agree with you. She certainly stayed true to herself. Palin started the debate out great. But, I think she stumbled a little towards the end. I was quite disappointed with Biden's rebuttal in regards to same sex marriage. In my opinion he double-talked the issue. How can you give same sex couples the same benefits as married heterosexual couples and not consider it a marriage? I know that it is possible.. But, if you're going to do that then why not just say you support it? I thought Biden would have had a more solid statement in regards to that... And the health care plan Obama and Biden are proposing is absurd. It is pure socialistic ideology. However, I am not surprised considering Obama was huge supporter of ACORN which forced Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac to write bad sub prime mortgages which trickled down to today and hence we have the crisis on our hands. Granted, republicans could have done more in their opposition to these exceedingly bad sub primes and other lenient mortgages. As Sarah Palin said during the debate: “Hockey Mom’s and Joe six-pack were exploited” by this easy money “and lets say no more to this...” This ideal of financial fairness stems from LBJ, Carter, and Clinton. Who all signed legislation forcing banks to write these bad mortgages in order to expand bank portfolios. Enabling people to live beyond their means. And it wasn’t only the low-income communities that took advantage and were exploited by this portfolio expansion. Middle class families that could only afford a 350,000 dollar home now could buy a 650,000 dollar home. Sarah Palin understands this. That is why her point in the debate that people in America have to live within their means was dead on. But, the democrats and Obama who ignored republican warnings of the problems that could stem from their strong support of fairness, disagree. It’s dangerous thinking, and if we continue supporting the “fairness” we will have another depression. And what prolonged the Great Depression? FDR’s tax increase. Obama-Biden hello? As McCain says, to raise taxes now will be detrimental to our economy. Let’s say Obama gets in. Let’s say he stays true to his plan and raises taxes ONLY on people making 200-250 thousand a year and up. It is the people with these incomes that are buying stocks, investing, own businesses and so on. Raise taxes, that all stops. Mark my words, if Obama gets in, he wont stop at 200,000+ incomes. If Sarah Palin was correct during the debate, He will hike taxes on people making as low as 40,000/ year. Not good! It sucks, because people like you and I who say want to invest in a real estate flip, can’t anymore. The sub primes are gone. No more loopholes for the middle class. Thank you liberals very much! Cant wait for your tax hikes YAY! Sike! This whole thing is complicated. I wish people paid more attention to history. But, this is just one reason why I am republican... Back to the debate aftermath, I agree, Palin did a good job for her experience level. I was very pleased with her performance. Actually, I was surprised. I knew she was a good debater but her interviews were sooo bad lol. I was really worried Biden would have crushed her. She held her own. I like when she referred to the terrorists as "dicks" lol. My boyfriend and I watched the debate at the Crabs Claw in Lavallette. The bartender turned it on for us. It was funny though. Here I am with a mouth full of food yelling at the TV. I felt so bad for my BF. Sorry if I just babbled a bit. I just get so worked up over the election and the economy.

wow I think im going to go cry now...

I just watched the Katie Couric interview with Sarah Palin.... It was not a good one. Her voice seemed nervous too. I only hope that she brings it during the VP debates tomorrow night....

first week gone..

Topic: Tell me about your first week at OCC. Was it what you expected? How? If not, why not? What do you think your most challenging class will be this semester? How will you cope with that class?

OCC AKA Hooper High. A suiting nickname for the school. But, not for OCC's Professors. The kids still seem clicky and act like a bunch of moaps. However, I have found the professors to be soothingly different from the old high school gang of teachers. I feel as if there is air for intellectual growth. I certainly was not expecting that based on the "Hooper High" rumors. My most challenging class will be Algebra. Not that it's hard but, I just hate numbers. Let alone numbers with letters that stand for numbers. UGH!! No, I despise math. That's a more accurate way to put it. The whole class consists of taking notes and then doing a zillion problems in class THEN, doing another zillion homework problems. Cope?? There will be no coping. That class is a suck it up and do it class. Besides, I put myself in this position by doing my latin homework in algebra II then receiving 50's for the last two marking periods. Yup... I deserve this grueling punishment. I guess I should have stopped reading Greek history and payed attention to their numerical system. I can say however, the two most enjoyable classes are English and Western Civ. Just great professors and great subjects. I'm sure I'll be discussing the classes in my blog. So stay tuned folks uh ha!

Family guy is Awesome!

I nearly died when I saw this episode for the first time.. The Nation Geographic on firetrucks is hilarious!!!

"Misunderstood"

Today in English class we breached many topics under the primary theme of identity. One of the topics we touched was in regards to the high school cafeteria. In one of the articles we read by Emily White called, High School's Secret Life she referred to the "cliques" in high school as "tribes". In class, this sparked our own recognition of her analysis. Noting the redundant pattern amongst American high school students of clothing conformity. Basically, what you wear, is what you are. God forbid a pretty girl in pink is seen talking to a black haired Anime geek. This observation and conclusion about high school student interaction got me thinking about what I did wrong or did right depending on your "tribe". Now, I've always been a "label whore", grew up in Shrewsbury NJ, nothing I or my mother could have done to subdue that. In that town if you don't have a Gucci bag you're an outcast. Even when I reached high school I could never understand why the "populars" hated me or wouldn't give me a shot. I mean I dressed like them for the most part. I drive a 96' BMW. Didn't matter, I was missing the lisp I guess. Now mind you this is all after I had moved out of yuppie hell and attended Southern Regional. Much easier to keep up with their social economics. Yet, I was still rejected by the "populars", even draped in Ralph Lauren. During class today, I was reminded that I am a "freak". In a good way though.. During school, I would be dressed in designer labels and talk to the World of War Craft geeks about how I enjoy Command and Conquer Red Alert 2 over War Craft. I would debate with AP Government kids. I'd switch up my labels for my Pink Floyd shirt from time to time. However, I had realized for a very long time that I had nothing in common with the "Louis Vuitton girls" and despite the fact I can keep up with them and had done modeling, I hated them. A bunch of closed minded unapproachable biotches. However, I would wonder from time to time what was wrong with me? Why did girls want to fight for no reason? Or make sly remarks? Why would I get puzzled looks when I entered my CAD class? Jealousy and admiration perhaps? It wasn't until my senior year I found a quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson that I felt a complete connection and justification with. And it just so happens to be my blogs title. "Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood". When I heard this my self-image and confidence changed. No longer did I feel like a freak, I realized I was simply unique. I hold a more mature perspective on life to be able to stand up and say no to the "popular" disassociation of us "uniques". No longer did I feel like a "poser" for wearing what I wanted to wear. So thank you Mr. Emerson for enabling me to be "Misunderstood".

Liberal Media Blows

Okay this is really ticking me off! The gosh darn liberals are making the biggest stink about a women taking office because she has a family. How many women out there work major jobs and take care of families? this is ridiculous! Can you liberals squirm any more Jesus! What about Hillary? She is a mom too. No one questioned her.. okay granted her kids are more less grown. But, Bill's a kid lol. Imagine taking care of that sexual apitite jeeeeezzzz lol.

Engl 151-43 Writing fun, huh?

Topic: What's the most fun you've ever had writing? Who was it for? What was it you were writing? Why did you enjoy the assignment so much - or hate it least, if that's the case?

The most fun I have ever had writing was in my junior year of high school for Mrs. Piscopo. Every month we would have debates in class. We would either choose which side we preferred or were randomly selected. I usually let her randomly place me then, one day the big debate came. The topic was Same Sex Marriages. Now, not only am I as "Right-Winged" as they come but, I am also Catholic. Need I say which side I chose. Once we chose our sides, we were required to research the topic and write our points of argument to be presented and used during the debates. Now you ask why I enjoyed this topic so much as apposed to say a Pro-Life, Pro-Choice debate? Well, It was simply due to the fact I knew the topic very well and I enjoyed ripping the other side a "new one". I also enjoyed reading different points of views in regards to same sex marriages. It was interesting to see how controversial the topic really is and how upset people are. What I really enjoyed researching and writing about was the fact that people who cannot procreate want to be eligible for benefits that good old fashion families use. I'm sorry I'm not paying for that. You want to be gay that's fine, what you do behind closed doors is your business. But, I'd rather my tax dollars go toward the stay at home mom like my mom that married to eventually procreate and bore two children. Even at that there's no guarantee that heterosexual marriages will produce children. So lets call for more unessicary depletion! Now if you want to adopt, good for you. But, there is no guarantee to that you will. I'm sorry but I believe that marriage is for pro-creators. Perhaps the Liberals can make a new program that allots certain benefits to gay couples with adopted children which I'm sure they already have. Let me just stop here before I go off the wall. Now you see why I enjoyed this assignment so much. Just to make clear so that no one thinks I hate gay people. I do not hate anyone for that matter. Okay maybe this one girl in high school. But, I have many gay and bisexual friends out in Landsdale PA and even right here in Manahawkin. I have even debated with my gay friends that agree and disagree with me. I do not at all simply dislike anyone for their sexual preferences. Don't believe me, I will give you one of their numbers. In addition to that, I have my own preferences that many would disagree with and I don't like it when people discriminate and disassociate me so why would I do that to someone else. But that's another blog. I just have a very strong point of view towards marriage. I say good day.